we're on a roller coaster!

As many of you know our baby has been breech the whole pregnancy. I've been trying everything I could to get her to flip. I've been on my hands and knees, going swimming and even doing head stands against the couch. I wanted to try and avoid a c-section so my doctor recommended an ECV or aversion. Basically what would happen is this: he would send me up north where I would have a very detailed ultrasound, a non-stress test, they would then give me an IV and muscle relaxer. They would then attempt to move the baby from the outside. Literally grab her head and feet and turn her to be head down. That would be followed by another ultrasound and a non-stress test. The night before the procedure I was really nervous! I heard it was very painful, but then again so was the though of a c-section. I wanted that chance to experience that sacred opportunity of going through labor, feeling those emotions and working for my baby. I knew I just wanted to try this.

Well after the first ultrasound the doctor thought the umbilical cord might be around her neck and she was measuring 2 1/2 weeks behind our due date which made him nervous. He didn't want any risks. He said the only option was to schedule a c-section at 39 weeks (2 weeks). I started mentally preparing myself for having a c-section and was looking forward to seeing our baby so soon! I had to have bi-weekly NST's and ultrasounds and at the following two ultrasounds the cord wasn't around her neck!! My doctor on Tuesday told me if I wanted to I could try for the aversion again. I didn't even think that was an option! I was overwhelmed and stressed again that I now had to make another decision. I had already mentally prepared for the c-section and was looking forward to meeting or little girl in a week, but I kept thinking I never want to think, "What if i could have tried natural child-birth", so I decided to give it one more shot. We were in the room for no more than 15 min when a different doctor told us for a second time she didn't feel comfortable doing it. She said it looked like the cord was to close to her neck (didn't see it around, but it was close) and the baby's head was resting on my placenta. If they tried to move her the placenta would keep getting in the way and it might cause it to detach which would cause our baby's heart rate to drop and have to perform an emergency c-section where i would be completely out and wouldn't be able to hear my baby's first cry. I was glad she was honest with me. (what was crazy about this is the technician didn't see a cord close around the neck 10 minutes before the doctor came in) I thought, well at least I know now and I would never think, What if?? and I did feel good about these results. I know Heavenly Father is watching out for the safety of our little girl and she is meant to come into this world this way for a reason. A c-section is scheduled for Wed. September 15th and 7:30 am. I was now counting down the days until we could see her. It would be 5 days now!

WELL...... I get a call this morning from my doctor. She is measuring a little to small for there liking. Even though I am 38 weeks, she is measuring more like a 36 week old. He told me he wants to check her lung maturity. He told me to come in the day before the scheduled c-section where they would put a needle in my belly, and get some amniotic fluid to check her lung maturity. If all is well, we will go forward with the c-section the next day, if not we may have to wait another week, maybe more...

I'm so grateful I have careful doctors who are taking care of my baby and me, but I am now so anxious!!! Will it be 5 days?? Will it be 14?? Do I have to wait to go into labor on my own?? I guess this is what it's like anyway waiting to go into labor, but it's just been a roller coaster!!

This is me at 37 weeks before the first scheduled aversion. ( i had to take a picture just incase it put me into labor)

The day before the second scheduled aversion I spent, what might be my last Wednesday before she comes with my mom and sisters. My mom pampered me by doing my eyelashes, eyebrows, hair and then Paige came in to do my toenails!! I'm so lucky to have family who love and support me!